Good Talk
Went to Elena's house for awhile last night as it was her sister's birthday and they were having cake, and I'm not one to turn down free cake. After we were done there we headed back to my house for the night where we proceeded to watch American Idol and go to sleep. On the car ride from her house to my house we had a great little chat.
We were just sitting there, driving, holding hands and she said to me that she was going to try really hard to keep the way our relationship works when she's home going in the same manner while she's in London. I'm no idiot, I know distance makes it hard and that she was busy with school and whatnot, and yes, I may have felt slighted and ignored and not like a priorty at sometimes. I also understand that she was over there doing what she needed to do, so I took it all in stride. She said she felt really bad about it and that she knew we had a really good thing going and that she didn't want to mess it up, so she's going to try really hard to do so, which makes me happy.
I can tell even when I go to visit that things aren't the same as they are when she's home. Maybe its because she's home and in her element that she can be herself. I'm not saying I don't have a good time or enjoy seeing her when I go to visit, because I do, I just know that its a little different than when she's home. So she's going to try to make it better, and I like that.
Even better sounding was her plan for when she gets back to London. She said that come graduation in September that if she doesn't have an agent or a part in some kind of show or something that she's going to come home. She said whats the point of struggling over there to make it, burning through all the money she's saved and being apart from her friends and family when she can come home, live with her parents, work part-time making money and be with me and struggle to make it in NYC. Sounded like a perfect plan to me.
I told her she would make me insanely happy if she came home, but at the same time I understand she's got to do whatever she has to do to make it. If she does get an agent and does find work, I'm still going to support her in whatever she does. I told her I'm behind her 110%, have been from the beginning and that I'm not going anywhere.
So all in all, we had a good talk. If only we could have capped it off with some great sex. She was even looking through my most recent issue of Playboy with Charisma Carpenter on the cover, but that didn't seem to do the trick. That was a pleasant surprise though, getting that issue of Playboy in the mail. I'm a huge fan of Buffy and Angel and always thought she was hotter than hell and I had no idea she was going to be in Playboy whatsoever. I love the little things in life that make it enjoyable! Damn good pics too. Maybe tonight it'll be yes on the sex, since it will probably be the last night we spend together before she goes. She leaves Friday and is working tomorrow night. Here's to hoping!
Alright, I'm out. Have a fun-filled meeting to go to. Have a great day everyone and I'll try to do the same.
Comments
Glad you guys had a good talk! For some reason, I get Playboys as well. 2+ years now and I haven't paid a dime. Very weird... And I was really surprised the girl was in it as well, she didn't strike me as someone who would pose nude. But she looked good!!
Posted by: Jenniy | May 12, 2004 10:33 PM