Well... That sucked!
So I took Elena to the airport last night and it wasn't pretty. She was taking leaving a lot worse than she did on previous occasions. Well, there were only two previous occasions, the first time she left in August, when she had no place to live on arrival aside form a hotel for the first few days and no idea what it was all going to be like, and last December when the worst thing she had to look forward to was a crazy 40 year old punk German woman to live with, which she quickly rectified by moving in with a classmate. But anyway, she was really upset last night, really depressed too, and she still is today.
She said she was really discouraged because she thought her agent showcase back in April was going to be this magical thing that opened every door she needed opened for her and it didn't. I told her she's just got to keep at it, keep working for it and if its meant to be, it'll happen, but then she said she doesn't think it'll ever happen. I just tried to be as supportive as I could be and told her to look on the bright said. Worst case scenario if she doesn't make it over there, at least she got her Master's degree and all that extra schooling and training for her voice and her craft. I said no one is going to think that she's a failure if she comes home without landing a role first, if anything all of her friends, family and loved ones will be so happy to have her home. I know I would be. I told her we'd throw a huge party and my mom would cater it, that made her smile, for a little while.
Its just tough for her, and I can't imagine doing that myself. It takes guts to move to another country to pursue your higher education and possible career and I'm really proud of her. Hopefully she'll come home soon, but if it takes time, I told her I'm not going anywhere. We got a good thing going, and I'm not going to mess it up by making ultimatums or anything like that. Unfortunately I heard her wrong the other night when she said she'd come home in September. She graduates in September, and if she doesn't make it, she'll come him December, right before Christmas because thats when her return ticket is for. Even though it only costs $50 to change it. I think she just wants to give herself the rest of the year to give it a go, can't blame her.
So now I'm back to having no girlfriend in close vicinity mode and it sucks, but I'm used to it, as horrible as that sounds. I'll be so happy when all this long distance stuff is done with and we can move on with our lives and start building our future together. Not sure what I'm doing with the rest of my day. Probably going to see "Troy" with Randy. The highlight of my day so far? Counting spare change I throw everyday into an empty pretzel keg bucket. Total rolled and deposited in my bank account = $86.50, which needs to last me the next week and a half until payday when I get some much deserved OT. The real world sucks. I just got paid, paid some of my bills for the month and now I have no money. Sucks sucks sucks. That seems to be the prevailing theme here.