I'm Pissed!
Very pissed right now, at my girlfriend, because honestly, no one can piss me off like she does. Why am I pissed? Simple answer and a more complicated one. Simple answer, I asked her on the phone the other day what her work schedule was like for the upcoming week so I could have a rough idea in my head of when I might have a chance to see her, she responds by answering my question and then saying something to the effect of, (at least this is how I heard it) "You take up too much of my time." WTF is that about? I've barely seen the girl all month, and when I have, its not like we've spent what I would call quality time together, so how the hell can I be taking up too much of her time?
Then she calls me yesterday as she's getting ready to go see a show in NYC with a friend, and I'm still pissed, and planned on telling her that, and she acts like nothing wrong. I think she finally got the hint that I was pissed and we argued a little back and forth, but no resolution came of it because she needed to go finish her makeup or she'd be late. Priorities I see. Thats OK, I needed to get ready to go into work too, as I was just getting out of the shower when she called. Didn't hear a thing from her until this morning and she acts like nothing ever happened. That ticked me off the most, because it makes me feel like she thinks nothing wrong and the fact that I'm mad means nothing to her. She was on her way to get something to eat with a friend, which again, must've been her priority. Although its not like I could've argued with her over the phone anyway.
After I come back from lunch I see thats she's online and she IM's me. Not to talk about whats bothering me, but about her upcoming audition and that she's going to read a scene with the agent from Smallville (one of my favorite shows). Again, she's all focused on herself and couldn't seem to care that I'm the one thats mad here. She ended the conversation with, "I know you're still mad, so we'll just talk later." Priorities again.
So the big reason I'm pissed? Because a relationship is supposed to be a balance of give and take. Instead, lately, hell, through most of the span of our relationship its been about me giving and her taking, and very little going in the other direction and I'm getting a little fed up with it. A little bit of her time at night when I'm done working isn't too much to ask for. If she's got so much stuff to do, what is she doing during the hours that I'm at work? This was the same thing with my ex-girlfriend, she totally took advantage of me and I would like to think I learned my lesson. I don't like being taken advantage of, thats for sure, so I need to make that abundantly clear.
I'm sure, in the end that I'm blowing this way out of proportion, but I'm still upset. I know this will be our one fight for the next six months, but I'm still pissed about it. 25 minutes until I can leave work and then she'll be getting a piece of my mind.