Just Not Into It
Isn't that a title of a women's self help book, "He's just not that into you?" Damned if I know, but thats about how I feel about my current lovelife, or really lack thereof. Details are as follows. I have been talking to this one girl, I shall call her S (Thankfully not the same S from a few months back. I don't even want to be reminded of her, or I may get ill), and I've been talking to her online via IM and e-mail and a few phone calls for two or three weeks now. She wants to meet up on Monday, as she's leaving for Vegas on Tuesday. I said I would, I'm just not excited at all by it. I figure I owe it to myself to at least go and see if there's anything there, and at least if there isn't, I'll know, and if there is, bonus for me. I'm just not feeling psyched about it at all. So there's that.
Then there's still the wonderful Elena situation, which I feel has been talked about to death amongst my co-worker, my friends and most of all here. I still don't know what to do. My co-worker was saying to think long and hard about whether or not I'd want her back, and I think that if she came to me and said, "I want you back," I'd take her back, but I'm definitely not going to put myself out there again like I did that night on the train. While I was proud of myself for expressing how I felt, it just sucked to get shot down after laying it all out there. My co-worker thinks I should sit back, play it cool, not always be available to her and let her come to me. She still thinks we'll be back together by the end of September. The last few times I've spoken to her or she's left a message for me, she doesn't seem to be too happy. About what, I don't know, but I'm not going to act overly concerned about it. If she's not happy, she's not happy, its that simple.
I ordered and picked up some diet stuff from her mom yesterday and we started out with the usual chit chat of how are things. I said a little crazy and asked if Elena mentioned to her that I was moving, she said no, so I told her all about it. I guess she must've turned around and told Elena that I called and placed an order, because two hours later she called my cell (I missed the call, but not on purpose) and left a message stating that she was able to get off of work the night of my party (great, so far the only two people that have RSVP'd yes, are her, and Brett, and Brett hates Elena. Fun times), that she was generally having a bad day, and wondering if I have the DVD I made for her to drop off when I pick up my stuff. I knew I was going to swing by her house on my way home, and purposely left the DVD on my desk. My name is not FedEx, not anymore. She called again, and this time I did miss the call on purpose, but left no message at about 4:30, just about when she was probably driving to work. I left her a message on my way home saying it was cool she got off of work, and that sorry, I left the DVD at home amongst a pile of crap on my desk. Have not heard back from her yet.
My co-worker thinks that once I move out of my parents house, and especially without Keyser, Elena just may come around. I'm not going to bet my life on it, so we'll just have to wait and see. What does everyone out there think? I know I ask this all the time, but I really am that clueless. In the meantime I'm just going to play it cool, even though I hate to play these stupid games to begin with.
Comments
I think your coworker's idea of playing it cool is a good one. Girls usually want what they can't have, and just from what you've written here she seems to respond more when you're doing a lot on your own, moving, acting like you're not waiting for her, etc. I agree that if things are to happen again for you guys, you need to lay back and just let it happen.
Posted by: Jenniy | August 11, 2005 4:04 PM