I'm happy to report that last night went off without a hitch. The family liked Elena and Elena liked the family. So its all good. I was a little nervous, but luckily Elena is such an outgoing person that it all went smoothly. As always, my time spent with her was amazing.

We also got to talking about some semi-serious relationship stuff. I told her that I meant it when I told her last week that I was falling for her. And here's the rub that I've probably failed to mention, she going off to grad school in London come the end of August. So she said that she knew she was going to fall for me too and then have to go away to London. Its a tough thing to think about, considering our relationship is so new and everything and it is in the back of my mind. But, I've resolved myself to give it a chance regardless. I mean, I'm not going to pass up something that can be this great just because of something thats going to happen in a few months time. August is 4 months away. A lot can happen in four months. So we'll just see where it takes us and jump off that bridge when we get to it.

In the meantime, I'm going over to her house later to do what else, but watch a movie. We're both movie nuts so we're like a perfect match in that respect. Kind of funny considering we met on match.com, huh?

Anyway, must eat something before I go and get the dog fed and pooped. Pleasant, isn't it?

Current music - Our Lady Peace "Whatever"

Alright, so now I'm excited and scared. Elena's coming over for dinner and now I'm paranoid that my family will act like a bunch of retards, well, really only my brother. But probably not, they're usually good around new people, and Randy is usually very polite around women, something my ex was always willing to point out when I stopped holding doors for her and such. In my opinion, she didn't deserver anyone acting gentlemanly around her, but thats another story.

So she's coming for dinner and most likely we'll hang out for awhile before hand, which is always cool, because I love spending time with her, she's a great girl, as I'm sure I've said here countless times.

On another note, I watched "Kissing Jessica Stein" last night and it was pretty good. A cute little movie about lesbians. It didn't quite have the happy ending I was hoping for, but it was satisfying anyway. If the DVD has some decent extras maybe I'll pick it up.

I'm sure Elena and I are going to watch a movie today at some point and I think its my turn to pick it and I'm torn between "Requiem for a Dream" and "The Boondock Saints." I'll probably go with Boondock because Requiem is just a little intense, all those drugs and stuff, and the ending probably would make someone physically ill, it did for me the first time I saw it. Boondock Saints was great anyway, violent and cool as all hell.

Not sure how I'm going to pass the day today before I hang out with Elena, or what we're going to do together, but I'm sure I'll figure it all out, I always do.

Current music - Cowboy Mouth "Jenny Says"

P.S. - Great band by the way. One of the only good things to come out of my time in Louisiana, along with my dog and a love for spicy foods and jambalaya. Good New Orleans band. Supposedly very energetic live. Never had a chance to see them because my bitch of an ex didn't want to go to Jazz Fest when we were living an hour from it. Instead, we bought a steamcleaner and cleaned the carpet in our apartment. Fun girl, right?

"All by myself! Don't wanna be... all by myyyyyseeeelf anymore!"

Being stuck home all by your lonesome on a Saturday night sucks. I got so bored that I actually downloaded that song, even though I keep getting it confused with that other similar sounding song, "I can't liiiiiiiive.... if living is without you, I can't liiiiiive... I can't give anymore!" You know the one, I downloaded that one too the other day.

Anyway, Elena works Saturday nights usually and my older brother Randy actually has a date, and my parents are out to eat with one of my dad's retired partners, so its just me and the dog. At the moment he's sitting on the couch, staring out the bay window barking at the darkness. Crazy little pooch.

To pass the time and the night I just watched "Top Gun," and I'm now watching the end of "Pulp Fiction." I taped "Kissing Jessica Stein" off cable earlier in the day, so I think I'll watch that once I finally go up to bed. Trying to pass the time until Elena gets out of work and gives me a call. I think its a good sign that we talk at least once a day, even if it is for just a few minutes, it shows that we're thinking about each other.

Now, I tend to get paranoid, especially when it comes to women, so for no good reason whatesoever I get the feeling that Elena doesn't feel the same way about me that I feel about her, but I know I'm wrong, at least I hope so. I know she likes me a lot, otherwise I would've been kicked to the curb by now. I guess its just that reality principle setting in. I'm so used to not being happy, that now that I am, I almost can't believe it. I mean, I wasn't happy during the last few months to a year I was with my ex, and our relationship was definitely over before she left and moved back home, but we just stuck with eachother, mostly because of the dogs and whatnot. But now that I know what happiness is again, I'm hooked. I can't wait to see Elena again, if just to be around her, you know? I'm so falling for her and I told her so, but didn't get much of a reaction, just a cute laugh. But I know she wasn't laughing at me or what I said like it was stupid. She laughs at stuff like that whenever I say it, I think because I embarass her, but she's a great girl, and its the truth.

OK, enough babbling. Probably going to get up to bed and try to kill the rest of the night away. Hopefully Elena can come over for dinner tomorrow, because she only really got a chance to meet my family briefly the other night and I've spent all this time getting to know hers, you know? Hopefully my family can behave for a night! Ha ha, good night!

Current music - Nirvana "You Know You're Right"

So "Identity" was actually pretty cool. It got some mixed reviews, which I expected, but it was pretty entertaining nonetheless. Not your typical slasher flick. It had a pretty good twist about two thirds of the way through, kind of make you think and it was done very well. And, to top it off, I'm very proud of myself because I actually called who the killer was about halfway through, although just kind of in a joking manner, but I was right anyway. So HA! You dumb Hollywood bastards, you're so predictable!! Now give me a job.

Anyway, the rest of the evening was great too. Although we had a really asshole waiter at the restaurant, he got his in the end. He started giving us attitude and bad service right off the bat when we ordered water to drink instead of something that would have costed something and ran up the bill, and his tip in the process. He never once asked how our meal was, I had to get up and go to the bar, which was close by, to get refills on our water. Bad, huh? So, instead of giving him the tip, we split it into three and gave some money to the guy that actually brought the food, the bartender and the other waiter who brought Elena more salad dressing. And I know the little troll of a man who was our waiter bitched about his lack of tip to his co-workers and I wished I could've seen the look on his face when they said that they got money from us. Ha, fuck you, learn to be a better waiter.

After that we just went to her house and watched a flick. A sort of indie film called "Black and White." It had a huge ensemble cast and was pretty good, even though I fell asleep towards the end, and then she fell asleep after the movie was over. I had an amazing time, yet again. I invited her over for dinner with the family on Sunday, hopefully she'll be able to come.

Anyway, its Saturday morning and who knows what the day holds in store for me. I'm sure I'll figure something out, I always do.

Current music - A Perfect Circle "Judith"

Life is going pretty great at the moment, I almost don't believe it. Kind of makes me think of Freud's reality principle. If I remember from college, it basically theorizes that human beings define their reality by their misery. The only way they can judge things that are good and make them happy is by comparing them to events that make them miserable. Basically, human beings are incapable of feeling good 100% of the time, they just wouldn't believe it.

I wrote a paper, a short one, in college on that and how it pertains to the Matrix. There's that scene between Agent Smith and Morpheus where he said that the first matrix was a perfect world in which none suffered, but that the human mind kept thinking it was some dream that their primitive mind kept trying to wake up from. So they had to redesign the matrix to fit with man's need to be miserable.

My point? I'm happy, and I'm just hoping its not a dream. I've been hanging out with Elena for about two and a half weeks and it just keeps getting better and better everytime I see her. She's an amazing girl and I really consider myself lucky that she's in my life at the moment.

Tomorrow we're going to see that new movie "Identity" which looks kind of interesting. Haven't read any reviews yet, but hopefully they'll be good, along with the movie. Then its probably dinner somwhere and then who knows. We shall see.

Sometimes I feel like I have so much to write here and I just don't feel like totally spilling my guts, especially over every little stupid thing. So on that note, I'll shut up now.

Current music - Pete Yorn "For Nancy"

Amazingly enough the Apple upgrades yesterday went off without a hitch. Damn, I'm good! The server upgrade was the one I was worried about, but it went smoothly, and I only had to call Apple once! It was kind of odd, because I checked my e-mail on my cell phone yesterday morning after I had been at my client for about an hour and there were two e-mails from Elena in there. One as a response to a picture I e-mailed her of her and her sister's dog, and the other was my horoscope for the day.

Now, I don't usually read my horoscope, but Elena is really into that stuff, so ever since I've been hanging out with her I pay attention to it occasionally. Yesterday mine said: "It's true -- you can perform miracles. Proof of your powers inspires you to continue to use them wisely. Someone meeting you for the first time gets a full view of your greatness."

Weird, huh? Oh well, it fit and it was true, very eerie. Anyway, after working for 8 hours straight yesterday it looks like I have the rest of the week off, which should be nice. I have some errands to run today, like calling a staffing company about a job, picking up my diploma at the framers and I don't know what else. Getting the brakes replaces on ym car tomorrow morning and tomorrow night Elena and I are going to see "Identity" which looks really good.

Enough for now. Peace everyone, and remember, Pearl Jam in 6 days!

Current music - The Donnas "Take it Off"

So its way too early on a Wednesday morning. I have to be at my client, the mac one, at 8:30 to start the server upgrade and I'm nervous as all hell. I know deep down that I can do it, I'm just terrified of hitting a snag. I know Apple designs their stuff and makes it so easy to use that a monkey could do what I have to do, lets just hope I'm that monkey. Worst case scenario, I go back to the way things were, apologize and say I can't do it. Or just call Apple and cry like a little baby until they walk me through everything.

On a much happier note, I spent the last two days hanging out with Elena, and they were both great, albeit just a little different. Monday night we watched one of her favorite movies that I've never seen, "Heathers." It was pretty funny and very enjoyable. And then we just hung out until about 11:30 when I needed to get home and relieve my mom of her dog sitting.

Yesterday I went over to house in the afternoon once I was done working. Her younger sister and her fiance just bought a dog, a tiny tea-cup maltese and it was the cutest thing in the world. I was really happy because Elena really took to the dog, and she said she doesn't like animals. So my hope is that she'll fall in love with her sisters dog, and being around Keyser won't be so much of a problem in the future. We shall see.

Well, I must hop in the shower and get ready for work. Wish me luck, hopefully I won't need it.

Current music - Coldplay "In My Place"

Man, I have done absolutely nothing of value today, and its been great! The dog wouldn't take a nap with me, so I throw him in his crate to no avail. He just whined. So I let him downstairs with my mom while she did who knows what and the dog just followed her around. it was very nice because I got to take a three hour nap, approximately.

I baked a cheesecake, because my mom was making one for her bosses birthday and I really wanted one too, so now I have one. I hope its good like the last one I made. After the cheesecake was cooling I took the doggy upstairs and he was finally ready to nap. So nap we did. Actually he slept and I tried to watch 61*. I had just lent it to Elena so for some reason I wanted to see again too. I'm somewhere near the end at this point, and I'm sure I'll get through it soon enough.

Funny annectode about Roger Maris, his 61 homeruns in 1961 and when Mark McGuire broke the record with a total of 70 in 1998. The night McGuire hit his 62nd home run of the season to break Maris' record I was at a Pearl Jam concert, go figure right. In the middle of Pearl Jam's set a beach ball made its way onto the stage. In between songs Eddie Vedder grabs the ball, throws it in the air, uses his guitar as a bat and smacks it into the sea of people in front of the stage. I guess someone told him through his ear piece about the home run and he decided to pass it onto the crowd. The crowd went nuts and just instantly knew what he meant by hitting the beach ball. Cool story huh? I thought so.

So, tomorrow I'm off to do some Mac work, which I'm a little nervous about. The extent of my experience working on Mac's has been limited to my iBook, upgrading Jason's sisters iMac with a new hard drive and OS X and the little exposure I had to them while working at the newspaper and the furniture company in New Orleans. But, I'm sure if I hit a snag I can just call Apple. I hope. I'm sure it will go fine.

I was looking forward to Hitchcock flicks with Elena on Monday, but she reminded me last night that it was her turn to pick the flick, so I think its either going to be something called Dangerous Beauty, which I've never seen, or Evita, because we were watching Madonna videos on MTV 2 last night. Its all good, as long as I get to spend time with her, I don't care what we watch. I can wait to see the Hitchcock movies I have with her until another time.

So, enough for now. Peace.

Current music - Pete Yorn "Committed"

Even though its Easter and I really shouldn't take the Lord's name in vain, being as its one of the Ten Commandments and all, but GOD DAMN I'm tired! Ah, what the hell, I'm Jewish anyway, we don't believe in hell, so I can't go there anyway. I got like three and a half hours of sleep last night, and tacked on maybe another hour to hour and a half this morning on the couch.

I didn't home from hanging out with Elena until almost 3 AM, and of course the dog was up and ready to go at like 6:30 in the morning. I was so ready to kill him. All I can say is he better be up for a nice long nap later, because I know I will be, and if he's not, he can go in his crate, because daddy needs sleep, bad.

Had a great time last night though. We went to Dave and Busters, grabbed a table at the bar, ordered a bunch of appetizers and started drinking some funky and weird drinks. Her cousin and her fiance met us there and they were really cool people. We then proceeded to hit the game room, which was fun.

We won something like 1100 tickets, which was enough to buy a little purple stuffed monkey (she loves purple), and we named it Little Ms. Monkey, because we were just filled to the brim with name ideas. Makes you wonder what people like that would name their kid? Little Ms. Baby? Anyway, got the monkey and a set of scented candles, gotta love the smelly candles, especially when they're the good kind of smelly.

We then grabbed some dessert at Friendly's and went back to her house, hung out and got comfortable until about 2:30 when I left. Great time once again, can't wait to see her again. Enough said.

Now, must get sleep.

Current music - Pearl Jam "Undone"

P.S. - Pearl Jam concert in 10 days bitch!

OK, so my plans for tonight have changed just a bit, but thats OK. Since Elena didn't think the food at the place we were going to tonight was going to be any good we're going to grab some Italian food nearby and then go to Dave and Busters afterwards for some fun. Also, we're not having dinner with her cousin, but meeting them there afterwards. All cool in my opinion.

I'm a little pissed that I have to work on Monday, since I was planning on watching some Hitchcock flicks with Elena, but I gots bills to pay and sitting around watching movies isn't going to pay them. I'm sure we can reschedule for a later date anyway. Plus, the client I'm going to is for Mac work, which my boss doesn't do, so I asked him if it would be cool if any time I did Mac work that I got paid a little more, and he agreed, so now I get 10 bucks more an hour for Mac stuff. And, since this thing on Monday will probably take awhile, I'll be making some mad bank. (Really bad usage of words, I know, so sue me).

Anyway, something a little heavier is weighing on my mind though. I really feel like I'm falling for this girl. I know we've only been hanging out for like two weeks, but I really, really, really like her, and I've told her so and she said she liked me too, but I'm not good at expressing my feelings at all, especially to members of the opposite sex. So I'm not sure how to go about telling her how I feel. I don't want to scare her off, you know? But at the same time, I really want her to know how I feel. I don't know. I'm sure I'll figure it out.

Current music - Pearl Jam "Rearviewmirror" (Live from Milan, Italy, 6/20/2000)

Well, Passover was a rocking good time, as always. Nothing like celebrating the Jews being freed from Egypt, at least in my opinion. Passover at my house was OK, the usual really. Then I went to Seth's house for some dessert. The second night of Passover was even better than the first. Why? Because due to the huge drop in customers, Elena was let out of work early yesterday, so she called me up and we went to catch a quick movie.

We went to see "Head of State," which was hugely predictable, but funny anyway. Elena swung by my house, so she met my mom and dad and brother, and dog, which was what I was really worried about. She doesn't really like animals, but Keyser, strangely enough, was behaving himself and wasn't jumping in her face or anything. I was proud of my boy. She was even petting him at one point, a very good sign.

So anyway, we're going out again tomorrow, with her cousin and her cousin's fiance, which should be fun, and then hopefully Monday, during the day, we're going to get together at my house to watch a couple Hitchcock movies. Hitchcock is the master my friends, the master!

Anyway, just going to catch up on some taped TV shows tonight, call Elena when her shift is up and save my energy for tomorrow night, because I think I'll need it. Did I mention how amazing this girl is? I really think I'm falling for her.

Current music - Pearl Jam "Jeremy" (Live from Seattle, 11/6/2000)

Happy Pesach to all you Jewish folk out there! I've spent the day doing absolutely nothing, much like I spen most days I don't work, and loving it. Took a nap on the couch with the dog this morning, then took the stinky little bastard to get a bath. Then its been a quick bite to eat for lunch followed by more loafing around on the couch. Fun stuff, eh?

On another note, Elena said she's trying to get Saturday off so we can go out. I suggested a place called Dave and Busters, its like a restaurant/bar/pool hall/video game mecca. I've been there once before, but didn't really have the time or money to play anything, plus I was in a pissed off mood the last time, on account of my lazy ass ex-girlfriend. So hopefully we'll have a good time, she said she was going to invite her cousin and her fiance and maybe a friend of hers, so I asked Seth if he wanted to come along as well, and maybe I can get Brett and his new lady friend to come as well, should be fun, the more the merrier, you know?

As far as the ex goes, what she said to me online yesterday still pisses me off, but I don't think I'm going to e-mail her or anything like that. I was talking to my brother's friend Jason, he suggested just completely ignoring her. He said not writing her shows that she's not worth the words, which is true.

So enough about that, and hopefully I'll never have to waste time, or space here thinking or writing about her, as I'd much rather think and write about Elena, because she's amazing.

Anyway, Happy Passover and Happy Easter to all you people that celebrate that. Enjoy!

Current music - The White Stripes "Dead Leaves on the Dirty Ground"

Well I beg to differ. Keyser is a little smelly dachshund doggy who is in desperate need of a bath and a nail trim, which thankfully he will be receiving tomorrow morning, just in time for all the company my mom is having over for Passover, or Pesach as its also referred to.

Anyway, had a great time watching "The Usual Suspects" with Elena last night. She's just such a great girl. I have so much fun with her and honestly, I can't remember being this happy in a long, long, loooooooong time. I didn't get home last night until almost 2 am, and then I had to be up at 6 to drive into the city. Thankfully that went ok, I was in and out without any snags.

I was talking about Elena with the lady that cleans my house once a week, Gigi, who is a very cool lady, by the way. I was going to go to Pearl Jam with her until she told me it was OK to offer my ticket to Elena. So I was telling her all about the past few nights and whatnot and I must've had the biggest smile on my face, which she told me not to lose, and hopefully I won't.

On a much more pain in the ass note, I had the unfortunate privelege of talking to my ex today. Oh joy for joy! I was hoping to go a whole month without talking to her, but she had to ruin it by e-mailing me yesterday, and like the schmuck I am I wrote her back. Then she IM's me today and starts asking me about my social life.

She asks if I've been on any dayes, to which I said a few. She asked if it was anything serious, and I said maybe. The she has the nerve to ask me if I'd had sex with anyone else yet, which is absolutely none of her business, and I told her so. She said she just wanted to know if I was happy and satisfied. I told her she didn't seem to be too concerned about those things when we were together, so she really had no right to be concerned now.

The whole thing pissed me off to no end. My brother's friend Jason, my Yoda when it comes to dealing with women a lot of the time, told me to just totally cut it off with her, and I'm trying. I've been considering sending her an e-mail to tell her I don't want to talk to her anymore, but I'm still sitting on the idea. Must consult Seth as well, I'm sure he'll have some sage advice as well, and hell, maybe we can write the thing together. He was an English major after all.

Other than that, nothing new. Things continue to go well with Elena and I can't wait to see her again, although I'm not sure when that will be. Its Tuesday night now, and I may have to wait until Saturday to see her again, which makes me frown. She's like a new drug that I'm addicted to, and without it I'll be going through withdrawal. But absence makes the heart grow fonder, right? I hope so.

Current music - Incubus "Stellar"

OK, so its like what, Monday now? I've been trying to organize my thoughts about Friday night into something coherent and intelligent all weekend long, but I just can't seem to, so I'm just going to leave it at this, I had an amazing time with Elena on Friday night. An even more amazing time than I had Tuesday night, which I thought was going to be tough to top. And in retrospect even though I was terrified of meeting her spur of the moment Tuesday night, we both agreed sometime late Friday night / Saturday morning that it was the best thing to do, since it got a lot of the weirdness and anxiety out of the way and let us have fun on Friday.

We saw "Anger Management" which was fucking hilarious. I know Adam Sandler is a very funny man, but most people don't think of Jack Nicholson as a comedic actor. Aside from "One Flew Over The Cuckoos Nest" and "Batman," when does he get to act nutty? But they were both great and it was just a very funny movie. We then for some good Mexican food and frozen margaritas, a quick drink at a lounge populated by middle age people and a very bad band playing Marc Anthony tunes and then it was off to her house where we hung out with her sisters and their friend for awhile before spending some time by ourselves listening to some Pearl Jam. Enough said.

We have plans to get together tonight to watch my all time favorite movie in the world, "The Usual Suspects." I love it so much I named my dog Keyser after Keyser S�ze. I'm sure she'll love it, since she's just as big a movie buff as I am. Then, next time, its her to pick the flick she loves that I've never seen, and so on and so forth. At least thats the plan.

So enough about that. I was up at 6 a.m. thinking I was going to have to drive into Manhattan to go to a client today, but that looks like it will be tomorrow morning. So its time to take a nap and get some energy for tonight, whatever it holds in store for me. Adios.

Current music - Pearl Jam "Yellow Ledbetter" (Live at Jones Beach 8/25/2000)

OK, I was writing something a few minutes ago, but the phone rang so I totally killed it. Oh well. I was just about to talk about the new, and final, trailer for "The Matrix Reloaded."

Put simply, this trailer looks fucking insance. This movie is going to kick all kinds of ass, seriously. The special effects look about a million times more complex and cool than the original, if you can believe that. I do and honestly can't wait until May 15th when the movie hits theaters.

On an even bigger plus side, Elena is a huge movie fan, and she actually loved the first Matrix film, which is surprising. I tried to get my ex to watch it with me a billion times but her answer was always that she didn't understand it, even though I tried to explain it to her numerous times. The same deal with Fight Club.

Actually I probably should have never tried to show her Fight Club, I think it put bad ideas into her head. We half watched it once, got into a massively huge fight, complete with screaming, spitting in faces, thrown remotes, snapped CD's, torn T-shirts and me getting slapped in the face. Nice, huh? Such a pleasant girl. No wonder I was with her for so long.

But enough about the past. Time to focus on the future, because the future's so bright, I gotta wear shades. I'm hoping to have a repeat performance of the fun level of Tueday night on Friday night. I'm sure it will be just as good, if not better. Its got to. We got all that awkward first meeting and other stuff out of the way, so now we can concentrate on having fun together.

To sum up, The Matrix kicks ass, Fight Club kicks ass, except when it means you getting tour ass kicked, The Matrix Revolutions is going to kick the Matrix's ass and I'm going to see Anger Management tomorrow with a great a girl. Enough said.

Current music - Pearl Jam "Breath"

Pleasant surprise, nerve-racking and extremely enjoyable can't even begin to describe the night I had last night. Lets just say it was amazing, everything I was hoping for, and scared to death about, and more. It's a long story, so here we go.

At about 8 pm last night I was downstairs, with the dog on the couch with me, surfing the net for something. I hear my cell phone go off in my room and I make a mad dash up the stairs to answer it, but I didn't get it in time. I check to see who the missed call was from and it was from Elena. So naturally I was pissed I missed the call, especially because I wasn't expecting to talk to here tonight for some odd reason or another.

Anyway, so I wait for the voicemail thing to pop up on my phone, and in the meantime I went into my older brother's Randy room to play with his new Dell, 15.4 inch widescreen laptop. (Which is very nice by the way, but its no Apple PowerBook). So the phone line that he and I share rings and it's Elena. We talk for a few minutes and then she asks me what I'm doing tonight (last night). I said I wasn't doing anything and she asked me if I wanted to hang out, like grab a cup of coffee or something. I was stunned and shocked, and scared to death. After sounding like a blithering idiot for a few minutes I said sure, why the hell not. I told myself I gotta meet this girl sometime, might as well be sooner than later.

So we agree to meet at my favorite restaurant of all time, Vincent's Clam Bar, which unfortunately is located in the mall, but thats an entirely different story. So I get there before her, at about 8:35 pm, and I'm looking around and it turns out that the restaurant closes at like 9 pm, so that was out. Elena showed up at about 8:50 or so. We met outside the restaurant and I told her about it closing, so instead we decided to go to John Harvards, a little micro-brewery/restaurant right around the corner. But before we left we hugged, which was really nice, since she smelled soooooooo good. I love it when women smell all fruity and flowery, it drives me crazy.

We shared a really nice meal, and she even tried to pay for us, but I wasn't having it, she even tried to just pay her half, but I told her that her money was no good. So dinner was good, and instead of getting dessert at the restaurant we went to Starbucks, even though neither of us really like Starbucks coffee. I just didn't know of any other coffee places, and a diner just wasn't cool, you know? Unfortunately Starbucks was set to close at 11 pm, about 15 minutes after we got there.

After Starbucks kicked us out we just sat in her car and talked for over an hour. My older brother called me on my cell phone saying to get my ass home because my dog was unruly. How he could still be awake after midnight was beyond me, but obviously he was doing something wrong. So at about 12:30 or so we finally said goodbye and sealed it all with a few kisses, which I'm still amazed I had to guts to go for. I figured might as well do it and get it over with to avoid further awkwardness and weird waiting and anticipation further down the road.

And damn was it good. I won't go into details, because I don't like to kiss and tell, but it was really, really, really, really, really nice. I can't wait until we go out again on Friday!

Now I need to take a nap because I didn't get home until about 1 in the morning and really wasn't able to get to sleep until way past 2. I was just way too excited!

Current music - Pearl Jam "Smile"

Alright, so Friday night is the big night. So far we have plans to go see Anger Management, because she's a huge Adam Sandler fan, and then go for coffee or dessert or something afterwards. That's about it so far, but I'm really hoping that all goes well because I really like talking to the girl.

My older brother was hogging the phone last night when she tried to call me, so she called my cell phone. Unfortunately I don't get much of a cell signal in my house, so it didn't even ring. She left a message that I got like 20 minutes laters. Anyway, point of the paragraph, I saved the message and listened to it this morning, this afternoon and just a few minutes ago so I could hear her voice. Thats how much I like her and want to see this turn out well.

She's really into astrology and horrorscopes so we were going over a lot of that stuff today while we were chatting online and on the phone. According to the stars we're quite compatable, so lets hope that translates into something in the real world.

Other than that there is very little going on. Hung out with Brett for awhile yesterday. He came over for dinner and we talked women. He started dating someone new and they just had their first little argument/fight, over sex no less, so we were shooting the shit about that. I'm sure it will all work out for him. Brett has a way of blowing things out of proportion.

Anyway, thats enough for now. Gotta go entertain the dog because he won't stop barking. Peace.

Current music - Pearl Jam "Immortality"

The Saints game was pretty fun last night. Of course they got their asses handed to them, as they always do. Every game I go to they get killed, come back slightly, and then stall before they can tie it. They lost 18-13, but we left when it was like 18-9, with like 5 minutes left.

The highlight of the night was the fight between two of the players, which was actually pretty funny. These two guys wanted to go at it, but one couldn't get his helmet off, naturally it was the Saints player that was a sped. He had one hand out to hold the other guy at bay and one hand trying to get his helmet off. The other guy just got frutrated and ripped off the Saints player's helmet and proceeded to pummel him. Very entertaining.

Seth and I had a good time though. We had great, cheap seats behind one of the goals and just sat, stretched out and bullshitted the game away. I was happy to receive an e-mail from Elena during half-time (gotta love the cell phone that can check your e-mail, God bless the Sony Ericsson T68i). I was going to call her, to just say hi, but once I got the e-mail I didn't want to disturb her, since she made it seem like she went out of her way to e-mail me. You gotta appreciate that. Plus she called me sweetie, which I like.

Not sure what I'll be doing to pass the time tonight. Since its daylight savings I'd like to keep the dog up as late as possible since I'm losing an hour of sleep and I haven't gotten much sleep the past three nights. But I'm not complaining, it was all well worth it.

The dog gave me a scare earlier though. We were throwing the ball around and I wizzed it into the living room and the dog ran right into its path and it bounced off his head and he whined. When I went over to him his eye was all closed up, I thought I blinded him or something, but he's all good now. His eye might be a little red, but its usually all brown, very hard to see the whites of it.

Need to find a movie or something to watch. I should be able to pick one, I only have like 300+ DVD's, theres no excuse for saying there's nothing to watch.

Anyway, thats enough for now. Enjoy, peace out, adios and all that stuff.

Current music - Dave Matthews Band "Tripping Billies"

I'll give you five bucks if you can guess what movie that line is from? I used to play a game with my little brother in the car that I'd give him a buck if he could guess the band that was playing on the classic rock station. Since he knew nothing about classic rock, I never had to, or was ever really going to, pay him. So anyway, time's up. The line is from the old school, 1960s Batman movie with Adam West. The UN or something announces it right after Batman and Robin re-hydrate some world leaders that the Penguin and all those guys turned into powder or dust or something.

I'm getting off track, why the success? It's pretty obvious from the previous post, but Elena called me pretty much minutes after I posted that last entry and we talked for a good hour and a half last night, until close to 2:30 AM actually, wherein I actually had the guts to ask her out and she said yes. We didn't work out the exact details, because at 2:30 most people don't really want to consult their calendar, but the details will be ironed out at a later date. Go me!

After I asked the question I told her that I'm a really shy individual and that its really hard sometimes for me to say things that I really want to say or do things that I really want to do, out of sheer fear. She made a mental note of that, so hopefully thats a good thing. I really like the girl and can't way to see if we get along in person. I hope so.

Plans for today include: Getting hair cut, buying wood glue to fix kitchen chairs at Home Depot, going to the bank to get cash and taking a nice long nap. Not in that specific order of course, but thats generally what's gots to gets done.

Saints tonight and maybe Queens tomorrow. We'll see. Peace.

Current music - Pearl Jam "Present Tense"

Why, all of a sudden am I blogging so much? Why do I finally have so much to say? I have no idea, I can't explain what goes on in my head anymore than you do. Actually, the reason I'm blogging right now is to help me stay awake. I'm waiting for Elena to call me. She was going out for a post-work drink with some friends/co-workers and I told her to call me when she was done regardless of time because I really want to talk to her.

What I really want is to ask her out and make some plans to hang out or something. Makes no sense procrastinating and having no courage when it comes to this. If I'm ever going to get out there and meet new people I'm going to have to get some guts. I know she likes me and I know she likes talking to me, she said I seem like a very nice person, and thats the truth.

So why shouldn't we get together and see what happens? I don't see why not and if she evers calls me I will pose this exact question to her. Plus I want to get it over with, because I'm not sure when I'm going to talk to her after tonight, she mentioned something about being free on Sunday and waiting that long to get this off my chest would suck ass. So wish me luck.

On a completely different note, (you can tell I'm really trying to kill some time hear, you get that?) I'm going with Seth to see the NY Saints lacrosse team tomorrow. They suck, but lacrosse games are fun and we like to catch a game once every few year just for kicks.

That's Friday night, as for Saturday I was thinking of heading to Queens to hang at Seth's, if he's not doing anything that is. He's got every Pearl Jam single and B-side ever released and I want to throw them all onto my iBook and iPod so I can have them too. One can never have enough Pearl Jam, because they rock the casbah, among a bunch of other places. As long as they rock the Nassau Veterans Memorial Colisseum and Madison Square Garden I'll be a happy man.

OK, Elena gave me her number to call her in case I couldn't stay awake any longer and to let her know not to call me. Really didn't want to ask her out like that, but if I have to, I will. Again, wish me luck, and adios for the evening.

Current music - Pearl Jam "Oceans"

I was poking around at the Pearl Jan fansite FiveHorizons.com today and in their Song X page found the following analysis of my favorite Pearl Jam song, RVM. Song X is a detailed look at a different Pearl Jam song every month. So here you go:

"RVM is a song that symbolizes for me one way of coping with an unpleasant or painful circumstance where you feel just slammed against the wall ... where you've been repeatedly taken advantage of, mistreated or oppressed, perhaps for a long time. Sometimes you just have to leave the situation and regroup, clear your mind, find some peace. As you put distance between yourself and that which is keeping you down, you can glance into the rearviewmirror and see what you are leaving becoming smaller and far away. Your mind begins to clear; you can put things in perspective. For me, RVM is about escaping, surviving and moving on ... summoning strength, overcoming, living! I gather speed ... indeed I do!!"

Fucking brilliant if you ask me. Watching "Singles" at the moment, mostly for the Pearl Jam cameos, pathetic, huh?

But it was all worth it. The phone conversation with Elena was great last night. We talked for more than three hours and didn't finally hang up until sometime after two in the morning. Good sign, right? She was so great to talk to, there was lots to talk about, never really a lot of silence, until about the end, but that was only because we were falling asleep. She's supposed to be calling me this afternoon during her break from work, so hopefully that will be just as amazing. I got a good feeling about this one. Much better than the retard who was calling me 5000 times a day a month ago. Dumb ass.

I'm off today and I'm supposed to be doing things for my parents, like putting together these clothes racks because their bathroom and closer area of their bedroom is going to be torn down on Monday to make way for their new bathroom. That means that everyone will be using mine and my brothers bathroom and everyone will finally know what I'm talking about when I complain about the mirrors. There's an entire wall of mirror facing the shower, so you're forced to look at your entire self in all its glory while you shower, very nasty if you ask me.

Lunch time baby and I'm starving. Gonna go get some Chinese.

Current music - Pearl Jam "Present Tense" (yes I'm listening to almost nothing but Pearl Jam, but when I see them in April and July I want to know what they're singing and not just sit there not knowing the songs)

News Flash! Single men every where can start celebrating! Jennifer Garner is a single woman! In the words of Monty Python, "And there was much rejoicing, yay!"

Things are progressing nicely with the victor of my Online Dating Final Four. We chatted online for about 4 hours last night and tonight she's going to call me when she gets off work. Hopefully all will go smoothly and I won't be too much of a total idiot. I get nervous talking to women sometimes, and thats a bad thing. I'm betting on having some real positive news next time I post to this thing.

Now I'm sure no one reads this thing, but it just feels good to get your thoughts out of your head sometimes, its kind of cathartic talking to no one and possibly everyone.

Can't wait, only 28 more days until Pearl Jam, 4 weeks away baby and I can't wait. And, a week and ahlf after that I'm seeing Pete Yorn in the city with Seth, so that should be cool. And then in July its Pearl Jam again at the Garden. Can't get enough PJ.

Current music - Pearl Jam "Rearviewmirror"

P.S. I can't help it, I love this song. Love the guitars and the lyrics especially. Its all about escaping from a bad relationship, I think. Hence it has some very fulfilling meaning to me considering the relationship I just got out of, although technically, she escaped since she left me.

But whatever. Its amazing how much better your life can be when you get out of a bad relationship. For a long time I was afraid to be on my own, but after thinking about it, and I had a lot of time to think about it, since she told me she was moving back home somewhere in the middle of Tennessee, I wasn't so upset about it. I honestly was more upset about losing the dog she was taking with her.

Ultimately, it was all for the best and I'm liking my freedom and I'm really liking the new thing I got going on with Elena, thats her name. Very pretty name. Its amazing how things come together for you mentally and emotionally when you get some distance from the person you broke up with, and not just physical distance. It's like the man said, "Saw things so much clearer once you were in my rearviewmirror!"

End rant.

My potential love life is starting to resemble March Madness at the moment. We had the Final Four, but whiddled that down to two that were in the semi-finals. Now only one remains. I got sick of that other girl always blowing me off when I tried to talk to her so I said to myself, "I don't need to put up with this shit." So I took her off my buddy lists and I sure as hell won't be e-mailing her anytime soon. If she wants to get in touch with me, thats cool, but if not, no great loss.

I have a good feeling about the one that remains ("There can be only one"). We've had some really long conversations until like 1 am, so time flies when you're having fun. Hopefully sometime this week we can progress to an actual phone conversation and maybe an actual date in the near future. She's really cool to talk to and I get a little charge everytime I see her come online.

Other than that, nothing new to report. May go to the Saints game with Seth this Friday. Tried to go months ago, but some snow put a damper on those plans. Work is OK, but again, wish I was doing more of it so I can get more money. I should have a job interview in the city sometime this week, so hopefully that'll work out and I can start pulling a real man's salary, so I can buy all the shit I want like a good consumer.

On another note, its now April 1, so Happy April Fools Day to all the fools out there. This means that it is only 30 days until I get to see Pearl Jam. April 30th baby, can't wait. Been listening to them like non-stop in preparation for the big show. Last two times I saw them I wasn't exactly familiar with all the music and kept having to ask Seth what song they were playing. Not this time! This time I'm going to be the Pearl Jam expert, bitch!

Current Music - Pearl Jam & Neil Young "Rockin' In The Free World" from the 1993 MTV VMA's (Fuckin' awesome if you ask me)