I must admit that the weekend has been going pretty well so far. As far as the depression front goes, its been OK and under control. I still miss Elena like crazy, but I think I'm dealing with it better as time goes on. I look at the calendar right now and it says August 31, which means tomorrow is September, and once September is done, October 10th, the day I'd leave for London doesn't seem so far away. I guess that's helped me so far.

I've also kept quite busy, which is good too. I ran a crap load of errands yesterday, like weighing myself (down 63 pounds total), getting my hair cut (it looks pretty good, I must say), going to Best Buy, the mall, getting pool chemicals and cleaning up Mark's room. The kid is a slob and his room was a mess, so now its clean and room for a futon or something so I can go in there and chill. So thats that.

This morning I went to Funcoland and traded in some old video games, that basically Mark and I both owned and got a new game for a dollar. Not a bad deal, I must say, and the game is pretty kick ass too. Now I'm watching Say Anything, because I got it for $10 bucks at Best Buy and I've never seen it all the way through. I think its fitting, about a guy that falls in love with a girl who is about to head off to London to go to school. Ironic, huh?

Anyway, spoke to Elena yesterday and will probably talk to her soon again. She's doing good, she found a roommate after it looked like her friend was going to screw her over, which is cool. That's about it. Went out with the boys last night and we had a lot of fun. Went home and passed out. End of story. Adios.

I just wish I had some. I know I said I didn't want to turn this into a constant "I miss Elena" blog, but I can't help it, she's what's on my mind, constantly. I miss her so much I don't know what to do with myself. I know I have work, and that keeps me pretty busy during the day, but when I come home at night, or on the weekends, its just me and Keyser, and sorry doggy, you're cute, but you don't fill the void in my soul that was created when Elena left for the other side of the Atlantic.

I know it could be much worse. I know I could never see her again or that we could break up, but this is still pretty bad. I'm sure she's thinking some of the same things, but at least she's in this fantastic new place, seeing new places and having new experiences and meeting all kinds of new people, and maybe she just doesn't notice as much. Maybe I do because my world isn't really that different. I mean, the only thing new in it is my job, which is great so far, but thats it. Nothing else is new and I'm constantly reminded of just how much Elena's absence makes it seem all the more empty.

For example, I've been testing out some new things at work before they go into production and nothing has worked like it should. Even when I get it to work, it doesn't, its complicated. Now I know I'm just testing and I can afford to mess up, it just frustrates me to no end and I get angry and pissed off. Now, normally, as bad a day at work as I'd have, I'd have something great to go home to. Now I don't have that and I'm reminded again of just how much I miss Elena, and of how much I love her and need her in my life.

I know we'll get through this, we have to, but in the meantime, I don't know how. Its not getting any better, its just getting harder, and its only been a week that she's been gone. I don't know what I'm going to do with myself. I know I should take up some new hobbies or pour all my energy into something else, I'm just not in the frame of mind to do something like that yet. So in the meantime all I can do is pine for what I'm missing and get even more depressed. It sucks, big time.

I'm going to try to stay busy this three day weekend. I have some errands to run tomorrow and tomorrow night I should be going out and getting some dinner with Seth and Brett, which should be fun since we all haven't gotten together since Memorial Day. Brett is getting engaged soon and already bought the ring, and all his talk about it just makes me wish it was Elena and I in his and his girlfriends shoes. I just hope that someday we can be. I don't know. Maybe writing all this down and getting it off my chest will help. Maybe not.

Current music - Our Lady Peace "Sell My Soul"

I really need to stop waking up so damn early, because once I'm ready to head off to work, and its not time to head off to work, I have nothing to do. I try not to surf the web too much, because what if I need to do that at work to kill time, it happens, and I don't want to look at the same things over and over again. So we'll see. I'm going to head out the door in a few minutes. Showing up at 8:30 is nice, because if I leave at 5:30, and take an hour lunch, thats an hour of guaranteed overtime a day. And, overtime starts at 35 hours or work, not 40, which is sweeter. And, since it is based on a 35 hour week, divide what I make by 35, multiply by 1.5 and thats how much I make an hour of OT, a lot more than if you were dividing by 40. I like how things just work out better for you.

So, the job is good, I'm looking forward to seeing whats in store for me today. Adios people!

I'm trying really hard to make every entry in this thing be about how miserable and lonely I am with Elena in London. It's just depressing, and I'm depressed enough without having to come back here and read about just how downtrodden I am. I miss her, I love her, we'll get through this and be stronger for it. Enough said. I need to call her in a half hour or so like I said I would, which is good. I'm sure she looks forward all day to me calling. So thats what's new on that front. I'm hoping I'll get off for Columbus day so I can go see her, and thats all I can hope for. if I don't, I'll have to wait until Thanksgiving and there's nothing I can do about it, have to deal.

Anyway, my new job is working out really good so far. I think I fit in great and we should be doing some interesting things in the coming weeks. I think I'm really going to learn a lot here, a lot more than I did as a consultant and definitely a lot more than I did at my dad's company. My old boss there was crazy and would make everyone come in on a Saturday to install a new server and he'd come in at like 6 AM, have the server up already and yell at everyone because they weren't there early enough and he had to do it all himself. Nut job if you ask me.

So, we brought up this thing called a SAN today, it stands for Storage Area Network. Its basically a box full of high speed high capacity hard drives connected back to the servers via really fast fiber optic cards. Interesting stuff. So we're going to get all these servers running and have all the mission critical stuff on the SAN. Should be a good learning experience getting everything up and running on the servers that we need to and then replacing a lot of the old servers that are currently running and in need of retirement.

That's basically what's going on. Staying busy at work and then coming home, tending to the doggy and speaking to Elena before falling asleep to a movie. Going to try to get some stuff accomplished this weekend, like maybe some writing, or I've been meaning to replace the rods in my closet because they look like they're about to fall, so we'll see about that. In the meantime, just keeping on keeping on.

Peace out.

Current music - Pearl Jam "Breath"

I'm totally fighting off the boredom here. Yesterday, Saturday, wasn't too bad. I'm used to not doing too much and being by myself on a Saturday, since Elena almost always worked on Saturday nights. And I'll be busy enough during the week with work and watching Keyser to keep me occupied then. I'm really going to try to have something to do today so I don't go totally nuts with boredom and loneliness.

I miss Elena like crazy, but I did get a chance to speak to her yesterday. Took my an hour and a half to get her on the phone though. I told her Friday that I'd call around 4 PM my time, which is 9 PM London time. I called, no answer. Tried again 15-20 minutes later, no answer. Tried again 15 minutes later, no answer. Tried around 5 PM, the guy at the reception desk said there was an issue with her phone earlier. I left a message for her to call me and I'd call her back. Eventually, at like 5:30 I get a call from her sister saying that she's waiting in the lobby for me to call, so I finally got a chance to talk. We both miss each other, which I guess is good, and bad. Don't ask me why. I guess she just has so much going on with moving into her new flat and stuff that she's keeping busy and feeling better about going to London as a whole. That was a big thing, she was worried about not having a place to live, and now she has one, that she loves. Lets hope she eventually wants to come back!

But I know I just need to stay busy myself, otherwise I'll go nuts. I'm going to run out to Petco later with Keyser to get some things that he needs, like food and bones, a new harness to go walking with and maybe a new leash. He needs a bath, nailtrim and anal squeeze (don't ask, you don't want to know) real bad, so maybe they can groom him while I wait. Who knows. I'm signing off so I don't keep dwelling on the fact that my girlfriend is on the other side of the ocean. It sucks, big time, but I think I'll get through it. October is just around the corner.

Adios for now.

Current music - Better Than Ezra "Live Again"

I'm frigging exhausted, thats for sure. Its almost too much to write down, thats how bad it is, but I'll try. Started the new job on Monday and so far its good. It's been kind of slow, but its the end of the summer and everyone is going on vacation and stuff. Things should pick up, eventually. In the meantime I'm just trying to get accustomed to everything and I think its going well. I think the whole position will be a great fit for me. The company is looking to implement some interesting technologies soon, and it'll be great to setup and learn a lot of it, so theres a lot of promise.

On the personal life front, Elena left for London last night and I feel real numb. I'm just so drained from everything, the job, the girlfriend leaving, its affected me emotionally and physically. I really think I need the weekend to rest and recharge. I went with Elena and her parents to the airport to send her off. I originally wasn't supposed/allowed to, but her parents kind of forced me too and I'm glad they did. I got to spend a little more time with her before she left. It was really hard to say goodbye and very sad, but I think we're going to make it. One of the last things I said to her was that I loved her, and that I wasn't going anywhere and seeing how sad and upset she was, I know she feels the same way. We'll get through it and we'll be better for it I think.

The plan is, if I get off for Columbus day that I'll go see her over the three day weekend. Leave after work Friday, get there on Saturday morning and go home on Monday with time to spare. Thats the plan at least. We'll see how it works out. I first have to find out if I have off. Its an optional holiday, either that or MLK day, but since I wasn't around for that, I'm not sure what I get. If not in October, I'm definitely going for Thanksgiving, thats a given. And its dirt cheap too, guess no one cares about an American holiday but us bloody Yanks.

Thats about it. I spoke to her this afternoon. Her mom called me this morning to let me know she got there OK and checked into her hotel OK, and was going to go look for an apartment, or flat as they're called. By the time I figured out how to call London and got my cell phone setup to do so by AT&T I just missed her, so I had to wait until like 4 PM, which was like 9 PM London time to talk to her. She found a great apartment and she was really excited. That was the biggest thing she was worried about too, and she found a flat in a day, so I'm happy for her. i just want her to, and told her, to go do her thing and come back to me, and she said that works. So we'll see.

I'm signing off, probably going to go fall asleep watching the Two Towers on DVD. I need the rest. I'm drained. Totally.

Current music - Third Eye Blind "Blinded"

It's been a busy couple of days, thats for sure. And extremely interesting to boot. Who'd have thought it? Where to begin? I guess I can do the old chronological order thing, that works well, usually. It's Sunday now, so starting from last Wednesday, here's what's been going on.

Wednesday: I went with Elena into the city. Had to sort of lie to my boss to get out of work. He let me know Tuesday that I'd probably have to go to a client in Queens on Wednesday, but I really didn't want to, I wanted to spend the day in the city with my girlfriend. Usually, my boss calls and gives me client info the night before I have to go, especially if a trip is involved, like to Queens. He didn't do that on Tuesday night, so I basically assumed I wouldn't be going, so I made plans to go with Elena to her voice lesson, instead of meeting her after it. My boss calls Wednesday morning, and I basically said that since I hadn't heard from him about it, I kind of assumed I wasn't going or that he took care of it, a basic lie, but whatever. So I got to go into the city with Elena and I went to Queens Thursday. The voice lesson was interesting to watch. I always love to hear her sing, but here I got to see the process behind it all, very interesting. We then went to see her friends cabaret act. The guy dressed up as Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz and sang a lot of ingenue songs from Broadway, like On My Own from Les Mis, and all that stuff. A very fun filled day. I'm glad I lied.

Thursday - Went to Queens in the morning to move a tape drive from one PC to another. So I did that, after having to cut the case down with a pair of wire cutters. And like a moron, I didn't even bother to turn the thing on to test it or install drivers. After fighting to get the drive in the case, I said f it, if they don't want me to turn it on, I won't. My boss kind of got on me about it, and asked that I just give him my all for the last two days I was with him, not a problem. I just hate Queens and sweating to death and getting dirty moving a tape drive from one ancient PC to a somewhat less ancient PC. After that I hit a few more clients, sweated more, and headed home. As I was driving home I noticed that some traffic lights were off. Weird I thought, power outage. I get home, no power. Eventually it dawns on me that there is a huge blackout, and even later I realize it affects the whole north east. At that point I'm glad I went into the city the previous day and not Thursday. I went over to Elena's, because she got sent home from work, and they had a generator at her house. The power came back on at her house and we flipped a coin as to whether or not she'd come back to my house for the night, I won. Although when we got to my house, the power still wasn't on. Didn't come back on until like midnight, and thats a story not appropriate for here.

Friday - Kind of figured I was going to have a busy day, what with the blackout the night before and that whole Blaster worm going around the net. Went to my moms office first thing to weigh myself and make sure their computers were OK. Then headed home, except the town was paving my street, so I had to walk home down half my block, on people's lawns. Got a call from my boss for my morning clients, a quick stop to patch PC's for Blaster, then to another client whose new PC wouldn't boot. Spent an hour on the phone with Dell getting the machine back up and running. Morons at Dell, I know more than them. Then I hit one more client to take care of the Blaster worm. And that was it, I was done being a consultant. Elena was stuck at my house because we took my car to my hosue the night before, so she just lounged around and watched movies all morning/afternoon. We got some pizza for dinner and watched Return of the Jedi, The Phantom Menace and Attack of the Clones to complete every Star Wars film she'd never seen. Went to bed at like 2:30 on Friday.

Saturday - Got up and went to IHOP for breakfast and ate way too much food. Went home and watched some episodes of Futurama before taking Elena back home so she could go to work. Went to the Walt Whitman mall and the wonderful Apple Store there to get the battery replaced on my iBook. For some reason its still covered under a warranty, which it shouldn't be, but I took the free battery anyway and saved $140. Very nice, and I must say, the battery works as it should. It doesn't drain too fast, unlike the last one, and actually drains down to 1%, instead of anywhere from 80-60%, then shoot down to 1% and go to sleep. Very nice. Watched some more Futurama, my parents got back from Hawaii, watched some more Futurama, then went to sleep.

Sunday - Unpacked all my new work clothes so my mom can wash and iron them and I can look sharp for my new employer, which I start tomorrow. I'm very psyched about it. Elena is coming over later and we're going to go see Bad Boys 2, which everyone has said was very good, so we'll see. Then she's eating over, we'll watch Sex and the City and call it a night. She's got to pack this week, because she leaves on Thursday night, and I need a good night's sleep for my new job.

I'm excited for her, its going to be a great experience going to London for grad school, but I'm going to miss her. But I have an excellent feeling about everything. I think we're going to make it just fine, and she does too, she said so in a card she gave me! =) I think we have something very special, and we're going to let anything like an ocean between us kill that. We just get eachother and I think its rare that two peope come together and just work as well as we do, so I have a good feeling.

OK, I'm tired of typing and want to watch more Futurama. I got the second volume or season, whatever they call it on DVD the other day, I'm on disc 3 of 4, good stuff. Funny show. Shame it was cancelled. Peace out and wish me luck on my new job!

Current music - Pearl Jam "Present Tense" (Live 7/9/2003 @ MSG, NYC)

I was hoping to go into the city with Elena this afternoon. We were going to go in tonight anyway, but she's going in early for a voice lesson and I really want to go to that instead of just meeting up with her later. My only fear stopping that is that I'll have to work today. I told my boss yesterday I was hoping to go into the city with her, so hopefully he's cool and lets me off the hook for the day. He mentioned to me yesterday on my way home abotu going to a client in Queens, but then I never heard from him again, which makes me think I'm not going. It would just be messed up to send me to Queens in the morning, this morning, with no warning or preperation or maps. But thats just me. Here's to hoping.

Went shopping yesterday and unfortunately only came out with three pairs of pants that fit. They're ordering me more and hopefully they don't take too long to come in. I like those pants and want them, bad! Managed to spend enough, but thats another story. In the past week I must've charged close to 2 grand on my dads plastic. Might as well go nuts before I have to give it back, you know? I mean, I needed the new clothes, bad. None of my old ones fit, and I wasn't going to start a job working at one of Long Islands biggest and most pristigous law firms looking like a slob. Hell no, I gotta dress to impress. Its that simple. I'm sure my mom will explain it to him. We'll see. I needed pants, shirts, ties, shoes, socks, all that stuff. Can't be helped.

Not much else going on. Trying to enjoy my time with Elena before she leaves for London. I'm trying to avoid using words like final and last when I refer to seeing her or spending time with her, because its not the final or last anything. We'll see eachother again, it may take awhile, but its not like one of us is dying or anything like that. I have a good feeling about everything though. We love eachother and I think that love will get us through. Enough said.

Going to shower or do something else so I can't hear the phone ringing (ha!)

Current music - The Hives "Hate To Say I Told You So"

So the annual accountant's/stoner bash has come and gone already, and it was an OK party. Its not really my party, even though its at my house. I just kind of attend and drag a few friends with me, if I'm lucky.

It started ok enough, got pretty buzzed/drunk. Then it got a little boring. Brett called me and said he'd be over at like 10, which in Brett speak means later than that, like midnight, or even the next morning. That was at like 8, so Elena and I went upstairs in my room to get some peace and quiet. She watched Halloween Resurection, and I took a nap for an hour and a half. When I woke up things were a little crazy. A lot of people I didn't know where in my house and making something of a mess.

Brett finally showed up with his girlfriend at about 11 and we chilled with them until like 1:30 when everyone started going home. Randy was drunk, puked and passed out by like 11, which was pathetic. So Elena, Brett, Christine (his girlfriend's name) and I just talked and had fun. Hopefully we'll all be able to get together again before Elena leaves for London. Slept kind of late this morning since Keyser will be boarding at the vet until Monday. I feel so out of it today. I got plenty of sleep. My stomach just feels uneasy, and I'm just tired I think.

I don't have much to do this coming week. I have things to keep me busy, like clothes shopping and getting my car serviced, but thats about it. Elena is working Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday nights and then thats it for her work wise. Wednesday we're going into the city, so that should be fun. Then in a week I start my new job, which I'm excited about. The steady income will be a nice thing to have. Hopefully. OK, I'm done. I think I'm going to go hop in my moms jacuzzi and try to relax. Adios.

Current music - American Hi-Fi "The Art of Losing"

It's Friday and I must say its been an excellent week! I'm killing some time until Elena comes over. We're going to meet her cousin and her husband (the wedding we went to a few weeks ago) for dinner and then we're going to look at pictures and videos and stuff from the wedding and honeymoon (nothing too graphic, I hope!) Then Elena is going to stay the night tonight and tomorrow before she goes out on Sunday with her co-workers for her going away celebration with them. Its girls only, but thats ok, I have to get up early on Monday and get my car serviced and pick up the dog at the vet. Then I need to go clothes shopping, because there is no way in hell I'm going to wear clothes that do not fit at all and look stupid and silly on me to a new job at a high class law firm. Not gonna happen.

What else has been going on, hmmm? Had to go to a funeral today for my dad's uncle, my great uncle. He died last weekend and my parents are still in Hawaii, so they weren't going to cut their trip short for it, but they wanted us to go as their representatives, I guess. Who knows. It was ok, it was a funeral, how else can it be but depressing.

Gotta drop the dog off at the vet for the weekend because of the party Randy is throwing tomorrow night. His big yearly shindig. Tons of fun, let me tell you. I can't wait. I have all of three people coming, Elena, Brett and his girlfriend. I'm just a spectator, and thats fine with me. Nothing else to report. I'll let you know how the party is. Peace.

Current music - Dave Matthews Band "Stay (Wasting Time)"

So, I told my boss the news today and he was pretty cool with it. He figured it was pretty much a matter of time that I got a full time gig, he was just hoping I'd wait a few weeks because he's going on vacation to Universal Studios in Florida in like 3 weeks. Oh well, what you going to do? He was happy for me, I mean, I gotta move forward in my life, right? Hell yeah.

Spent 5 hours setting up new machines at a client in Queens today and it just reinforces my rule of not going into Queens. Everything at the client went silky smooth, but when I went to my car to drink my afternoon lunch shake, I had a parking ticket on my windshield. Its only $35 bucks, but still. There was a sign posted that said no parking on one side of the street on Thursday's, 12:00 - 1:30 PM, and sure enough, at 12:07 the meter maid struck back. Oh well. Could have been worse, like more expensive worse, and I guess the city of New York needs to make their money somehow so people like Brett, a member of the NYPD can make a living.

So I'm going to start my new job on Monday the 18th. I figure it gives my boss one more week of not really needing me, so I can sit back and chill and hang out with Elena until she goes off to London. Plus my parents aren't around, and I'll need their help with the dog, because my yougner brother is useless. Also, I'm going to be working full time for the next 40 years, so what's one more week of not doing anything? Not much if you ask me.

Alright, dinner will be here soon and I'm starving. I weighed myself today and I lost anouther pound and a half to make my total loss 52 pounds. I'm going to go back and weigh myself in the morning on an empty stomach, because I'm sure I'll weigh less, and I may even weigh under 300, which is a pretty big goal of mine. Here's to hoping!

Peace out party people.

Current music - The Thorns "I Told You"

I got the job, I got the job, I GOT THE JOB!!! WOO HOO!!! It only took me a year and two months, but I finally have a full time job. Hey, the job market sucked ass, and I honestly picked the wrong time to move to NY and look for a job in the NYC and Long Island area in the IT field, let alone any field. But, its all good now, because I GOT THE JOB! Here's the rundown.

Got there at like 9:45 for my 10:00 AM interview. Went down to the conference room for my interview. The receptionist said I was meeting with someone else first, someone else from the IT department, a woman that I worked with when I did consulting there years ago. She remembered me and when she saw my resume told my soon to be new boss that he should definitely hire me. It was a short little interview, but it went well.

Then I met with the main guy, Stan. I heard from my old supervisor Thomas that the guy hated consultant, and thats what my current job title was on my resume, but he seemed cool with it. The interview went well and after it was pretty much over he asked me what I was looking for pay wise and I told him and he said the only formality was to check my references, which he was sure would be just fine.

Then I met with the Director of HR, another person who remembered me from my time there oh so many years ago, and she ran down the basics of the benefits, like vacation time (have to wait until January to get any, so I have to wait until January to visit Elena), health insurance, 401K, personal day, sick days and all that stuff. And then I went home.

But I didn't go directly home. I stopped off at Elena's restaurant to tell her the good news. The lunch shift was just starting, so I sat down and had some lunch and talked to her for awhile. I could tell she was proud of me, and I was proud of myself. I'm just so amazed that everything has fallen into place in my life recently.

Ever since that bitch of an ex-girlfriend left me, everything has been great. I got a part time job that enabled me to make some money and study for Microsoft stuff at the same time. I met and fell in love with an amazing girl, and even though she's moving to London in two weeks, I think we'll make it and be stronger for it. And now, I just landed a good job with a great company. Life is very very good at the moment!

Anyway, so I went home and called my parents in Hawaii to tell them the good news. I called at like 1 PM our time, which was 7 AM Hawaii time, but my mom was up and my dad was downstairs. She was excited for me and then my dad called, but I was in the bathroom, so I called him on his cell phone and he was proud of me too. He said it took me long enough, but what are you going to do?

Then, around 3:00 PM I got a message on my machine from Stan, my new boss. I called him back and he said its all good, they're going to pay me what I'm looking for and that they just need to know when I can start. So I'm going to see my current boss tomorrow, so I guess I can tell him then. I hate to leave a job, but it was part time all the time, and I honestly haven't worked much since the start of the summer, since about July, so what can I do? I gotta eat too, you know? I'm sure he'll be happy for me.

So that's it, and again, WOO HOO!!! I GOT A JOB!!! Here comes a new PowerBook, as soon as I pay off my credit card, save up the money for it and Apple releases an updated model with all the goodies I want in it, like Bluetooth built in, and 802.11g wireless networking. Go me! Life is good!

Current music - Blur "Song 2" (It's the Woo hoo song, I just had to)

So far, there are a few things on the social calendar this week. Let's recap with yesterday shall we?

Monday:
Played some Zelda for a few hours this morning. I was tempted to go buy a new GameCube game, when I realized I haven't even finished the few I had, so I decided to pick up The Legend of Zelda: The Wind Waker where I left off all those months ago when I first met Elena. Played for like 2 hours, cleared the dungeon I was in, had fun. Elena came over in the afternoon and we went to see Pirates of the Caribbean, which was really good. I enjoyed it thoroughly, and it only took us a month to get around to seeing it, we tried to go twice before and got sidetracked. Then we came back to the house, went swimming for awhile, then made some great breakfast food for dinner, watched some of the original Star Wars and went to bed (she slept over, and it upstairs sleeping as we speak).

Tuesday: (Today)
Not sure what exactly is on tap for today. Elena has a wake to go to this afternoon, so I may go with her, but only briefly, wakes freak me out, big time, so we'll see. I may have to work, but that's doubtful. This has been one slow summer, but what can you do? Not sure what's up for tonight, but its anyone's guess, so we'll see.

Wednesday:
I have my second interview with the law firm and here's to hoping and praying that things go great so I can the job, have a full time income with benefits and can pay off my credit card and car so I can start saving money for the future and buy a new powerbook. Damn, I'm such a good capitalist.

Thursday:
Who knows again. Elena's working, so I'm on my own.

Friday:
My dad's uncle, my great uncle, died over the weekend and the funeral is Friday afternoon, so thats where I'll be. Pleasant, but at least I'll get to family that I never see, even though they'll all be sad. What can you do? Fuerals suck, but death is a part of life, right?

Saturday:
Randy's big summer party is Saturday. I mainly attend as a spectator, as my guest list is always very low. Like last year it consisted of Brett, and thats it. This year, its Brett and his girlfriend, if he can make it, and Elena. Thats pretty much it. So we'll see on that one too.

Thats it. Thats the week. Want the job, bad, so I need to go in there and kick some ass and impress the hell out of him. I think if I just be myself I'll be ok. Also, according to my old supervisor, Thomas, from his conversations with Jim, my hopefully future coworker, I'm the front runner. So lets keep our fingers crossed, shall we? Adios.

Current music - The Who "My Generation"

This sounds kid of weird, but I got some good news from Catholic Health Services about the help desk job I interviewed for and the good news is I didn't get the job. Sounds kid of odd, huh? But, I didn't want the jobin the first place, so I'm relieved that I didn't get it. Like I said, I think I have a much better shot at the job at the law firm, which is the one I really want. I got a letter in the mail from CHS today, saying they went with someone whose qualifications/salary requirements were a better fit. I guess I was asking for too much, but there was no way I was going to go under my requirements. Thats how much I think I'm worth, so f-you if you think otherwise. I don't care anyway, didn't want the job, didn't get it, happiness all around.

Haven't doen much today. Went to Best Buy earlier with Rand and convinced him to get an X-Box. So I bought that new Star Wars RPG, Knights of the Old Republic. Been playing it a little so far and I must say its pretty good so far. Can't wait to get really into it. I'm really looking forward to a new Jedi Knight game, Jedi Academy in September. That should be cool.

Waiting for Seth to come over. I was supposed to go to Riverhead or Roosevelt Field with him earlier to look at Bose stereo's but I just wasn't in the mood for it. Not really in the mood to hang out too late either. Been in a kind of weird mood the past few days. I think its a combination of Elena leaving soon and the whole trying to get a job thing. I'll just take it one step at a time. I think the job thing will come through soon enough, and then I'll have the money to go visit Elena without getting into a lot more debt.

So there you go. Thats whats on my mind. Enjoy.

It's always way too hot in my room, but for some reason its just way out of control tonight. I think its something with the central air vent in my room not working so well. Need to call the AC guy one of these days, but in the meantime, I'm sleeping with my shirt off. Don't get too excited.

So what else is going on. Lets run it down:

Went to see American Wedding with Elena this afternoon and it was pretty damn funny. It was basically a Stifler fest, but he's funny as hell and so was the movie. I'm sorry to see the series come to an end, but like I said, it was funny as hell. Don't want to get into too much or spoil it, but it was just as crude as the others, with gorss out gags that go even further, but it definitely broke the formula of the first one, which was good. Funyn as hell.

Lets see, what else. Been working on my screenplay. I'm on page 30 now. I printed out what I had written years ago and basically typed a lot of it into my screenplay software. Still have like 2 chapters to go through before I have to start being original again. Hopefully I'll be able to. I'm sure I will.

Spoke to my old supervisor briefly today. He spoke to the guy I interviewed with and got the skinny for me. Basically, the guy I met with, Jim, really liked me, felt like I knew my shit and thought I was pretty cool and easy to talk to. He said a lot of the other interviewee's were total wallflowers, but he felt like he could talk to me and let the conversation flow, which I think is really important to a working relationship. He also said that I should definitely get a call back for a second interview, so we'll see. I have an even better feeling now, but again, not going to get my hopes up too much. So we'll see.

Going to bed now because I'm tired. Talk to you in the AM.